Merry Xmas everyone!
I know this season means alots to everybody, also for me. But this year, my xmas is not as good as previous years. My family came to SGP in this holidays.Ok then Im happy for it. We hang out everyday, have fun and enjoy the holidays. But do we really have fun???? Im not sure about that...There are many inside stories...making me think and think about deeply.. then I realize that Im wasting my time in nothing.
Family-I can say I love my family (mom n 2 brothers) ..others are SHIT to me!Esp U, my mom "husband"! Are u rilli a husband??? I can tell U dun know how to be A HUSBAND.

Friends -For me, I wont never doubt about friends, I trust them, I believe them..they are like sisters and brothers to me. They treat me good, then I even treat them better. Im proud of it...maybe the ways I treat them make them not happy or uncomfortable but that is my heart to them.Then wat do I receive?? All I receive is just a BLOCK on msn.

Love- When Im in love, i ll be crazy and love deeply. I may doubt or confuse at first then when he proves his love, Im sure I ll believe him...I know u have crushers sometimes and me ,too. That is acceptable. U told me everything about them, Im happy for it, cause it points out that we r not onli bf/gf, we r BFFs.After we broke up, we still kept contact and told others about our crushers.I still can check ur emails.(abit too much for friends) Thats good!cause less couples after breaking up can become friends.U r rilli a good friend to me. I nvr doubt about it.Im confident that u wont nvr treat me badly. But now, u r doing that and ur image in me collapses.I nvr think that U can del my fb, that is UNBELIEVABLE!

Sometimes i look at the bear which reminds me of you a lots...

I miss our long distance relationship
I miss our yesterday
I miss all the stories we used to talk about
I miss the jokes we laughed together
I miss the nights we spent
I miss the songs we listened together
I miss all the e-cards we sent
I miss 233 emails from you
I miss all the different p.s we wrote in every single emails
I miss all the personal messages for each others on yahoo messenger
I miss the blog entries we wrote
I miss the lessons we studied together
I miss the assignments you did for me
I miss the night we cried together
I miss the arguments we fought
I miss the nicknames we gave to others
I miss when we named us donut's property and kitty's property in our yahoo friend list
I miss the funny names we called our crushers "the boy next door"," chemistry girl", "mongolian boy" ....
I miss the time we gossiped about people around us
I miss the ways how we were jealous of our ex-s
I miss when we counted down on your birthday
I miss our a year anniversary
I miss everything we had together
.......
You were the only one I would love to do everything to make you happy
You were the only one I wanted to love with all my hearts
You were the only one I though of every morning I woke up
You were the only one I stayed awake and waited for all night long
You were the only one I wanted to have sex it
You were the only one who made me become a better person
You were the only one who gave me the warm of love
You were the only one who taught me what the true happiness is.

You were the reason I'm afraid of listening to "you are beautiful"-James Blunt ; "Christmas in my heart"-Sarah Conner
You were the reason I can not love some else truly and fully until now

You were more than a boyfriend
You were my true best friend

.......

You broke my heart
You cheated on me
Although I no longer loved you as much as I did, it did not mean you could cheat on me.
Should I blame you or should I be thankful to you for teaching me never trust in a long distance relationship??
Should I be grateful to God for giving me such a memorable love?
It is impossible to forgive you
Why do I keep missing you, missing our love?
Why cannot I forget about our love?
Even I know our love was yesterday
Sometimes, i feel hopeless and disappointed
I did try to stop myself from missing you
I endeavored to hold on all my tears in heart
Cause crying can not take our love back
Why do my tears keep falling down in nights?

As time goes by,
I should learn to forget a bit about you everyday
Days by days, a bit becomes much
then one day, I will totally take you out of my heart

Once in my life, i wish i would have someone love me as much as you did

P.s: I hope this is a very last blog entry I have written about you.

Dear my F.A.H housemate,

I CAN NOT stand U animore. You think u r rich, I know ur parents hire a lots of maids to serve you and they have to obey u. It doesnt mean u can do watever u like. Sorry, im also a princess at home. But I know where my limits are. Boy, dont be so stubborn like this. Nobody is going to obey or stand u as ur family n ur maids. We live in a same roof, we have to respect each others.That is universal truth.I respect u, but U dun then Its hard for me to live with u.However, dun worry boy. I wll always have ways to face you, A.H ....hahahahaha

Dear my long hair bitchy,
If I got back time, I would not be in a same group with u for sure. U r such as a bitch. I F*F*HATE u. Ok, every1 says that u are pretty,hot and most of boys wanna talk to u, they treat u as a princess..(haiz another princess n prince in my life) That is ur own life, i dun have ideas about that.But the point is we r in the same group, everyone has their own tasks to do, we all do our part but why dun u do ur part ? U think U will get high mark when U r doing nothing or u get high just because U r PRETTY.Plz wake up my bitchy princess, teacher is not a teen boy animore and he wont look at ur face or ur body then gives u mark.One more things I hate about you is why U have to be difference with the group. The group set wearing formal as uniform for the presentation but why dun u just follow. Plz understand that this is a presentation not ur fashion show. U can not wear watever U like, if U want that,ok then U just make ur own group.